Gosh... has it been just 4.5 months that I was away? A quick check at the calendar confirms it.
How can it be? As I sit here, having my last self-cooked dinner, it feels so surreal. How can it be that I have spent 4.5 months away from home? It feels just like yesterday. But I have the plane ticket stubs, photos I took on my travels to prove it and loads of wonderful memories to prove it.
As I was telling my friend, 'Although it is hard to leave, but at the same time, i think that it is just right for me... cause i travelled so much. I could probably go on living here forever though, but i am also looking forward to coming home...'
Actually, I don't really feel like I'll miss this place or anything now and this ironically was the feeling I had just before I came over too. A little like indifference, just a step that I have to take.
Oh... I know I will miss the cool weather, the scenic train rides, the fresh air, the pace of life. But at the same time, the things that mattered to me - friends I met here have all left for home some time earlier this month. This is what is real. Having felt the support from family and friends back in Singapore. when I was over here - that was also real. Perhaps what matters to me is not the place, but the people.
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This marks the end of yet another chapter of my life. A chapter that I enjoyed tremendously and cherish. Thank you Daddy and Mummy for being so supportive of this exchange. I really really really appreciate it.
"When will you be home?" she asks
as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me
You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
-Fly Away, Corrinne May -
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